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I keep thinking I should post something to say that "Hey! I'm still alive and doing okay." But I just don't have anything too exciting to talk about. I mean, if I were being honest and posting the big events in my life the past few months, it would just be things like "One of my grandfathers died and I can't go the funeral for health reasons" followed a few months later by "Another grandfather died and I can't go the funeral because Covid." I'd really liked to go one whole year at least without a family death. If anyone wonders why I don't read books or fic with major character death, it's because over the past decade I have yet to go a full year without a family member passing away. (The 'joy' of large blended families, eh?)
Honestly, the most exciting thing that's happened in the past month is the fact we can now order our shopping online again, as more people are going out to the shops again.
I'm really struggling this month with my mental health. Everything is frustrating and not the least bit interesting. I know getting out would help some, but going for walks has been a bit difficult the past few weeks between the pouring rain and the fact the nerves in my left leg have decided that numbness is boring, so they need to change things up with stabbing pain. Not to mention, I'm less likely to go out for a walk on my own, and by the time Down is finished with work and we've had dinner, I'm ready to go to bed, as I tend to be up four or more hours before she is, thus am ready to sleep well before her. (I really ought to work out how best to work around the cats being convinced 6:30 AM is breakfast time. That's probably going to involve having a second sleep once they've eaten, like I did this morning.)
This is obviously affecting my writing. These last few chapters of Cursory Education are a struggle to write. I know what I want to happen but I can't see the scenes in my head. And as I am more of a visual person, this is making writing them difficult. And I'm really frustrated because I wanted to have them finished before it was time to post them. As I had the first few chapters finished and these outlined, I thought it would be no problem, and yet... UGH! (I do have the draft of the net chapter finished. It just needs editing. I'm now just working on the final one. Writing emotions is SO HARD!)
One bright spot for today is the fact my DVD set of 逃げるは恥だが役に立つ (We Married as a Job) arrived today, so I'm currently binge-watching it while tidying the sitting room and typing up this journal entry. I found it when I was looking for a marriage of convenience story. I've watched a number of dramas that fit the description, but this is so cute and perfect, and I love it. We watched the whole of it online, and then I ordered the DVDs. I've been wanting to rewatch it for weeks, but have been waiting for the DVDs as I prefer watching things on the TV and unhooking any of the other devices just to plug my laptop into the TV is annoying. (Not enough HDMI ports.)
It's a slightly different dynamic than I am writing, but it's enough to make me think about things. And give me ideas of where I could go with my fic. Also, it's just cute and missing most of the elements I find annoying in romance dramas.
Honestly, the most exciting thing that's happened in the past month is the fact we can now order our shopping online again, as more people are going out to the shops again.
I'm really struggling this month with my mental health. Everything is frustrating and not the least bit interesting. I know getting out would help some, but going for walks has been a bit difficult the past few weeks between the pouring rain and the fact the nerves in my left leg have decided that numbness is boring, so they need to change things up with stabbing pain. Not to mention, I'm less likely to go out for a walk on my own, and by the time Down is finished with work and we've had dinner, I'm ready to go to bed, as I tend to be up four or more hours before she is, thus am ready to sleep well before her. (I really ought to work out how best to work around the cats being convinced 6:30 AM is breakfast time. That's probably going to involve having a second sleep once they've eaten, like I did this morning.)
This is obviously affecting my writing. These last few chapters of Cursory Education are a struggle to write. I know what I want to happen but I can't see the scenes in my head. And as I am more of a visual person, this is making writing them difficult. And I'm really frustrated because I wanted to have them finished before it was time to post them. As I had the first few chapters finished and these outlined, I thought it would be no problem, and yet... UGH! (I do have the draft of the net chapter finished. It just needs editing. I'm now just working on the final one. Writing emotions is SO HARD!)
One bright spot for today is the fact my DVD set of 逃げるは恥だが役に立つ (We Married as a Job) arrived today, so I'm currently binge-watching it while tidying the sitting room and typing up this journal entry. I found it when I was looking for a marriage of convenience story. I've watched a number of dramas that fit the description, but this is so cute and perfect, and I love it. We watched the whole of it online, and then I ordered the DVDs. I've been wanting to rewatch it for weeks, but have been waiting for the DVDs as I prefer watching things on the TV and unhooking any of the other devices just to plug my laptop into the TV is annoying. (Not enough HDMI ports.)
It's a slightly different dynamic than I am writing, but it's enough to make me think about things. And give me ideas of where I could go with my fic. Also, it's just cute and missing most of the elements I find annoying in romance dramas.
